Twenty Four Hours Part Six

Now that I've realized how it's
all gone wrong
Got to find some therapy -
this treatment takes too long
Deep in the heart of where
sympathy held sway
Got to find my destiny before
it gets too late

I’ve been in therapy for about four years now. I’m not sure its helping all that much. But it doesn’t take too long, that is good.

Twenty Four part five

I never realized the lengths
I'd have to go
All the darkest corners of a sense
I didn't know
Just for one moment -
hearing someone call
Looked beyond the day in hand
There's nothing there at all

On our search for something to believe in we are often disappointed, but never with Jack Bauer. He is the real deal

Twenty Four Hours Part 4

Excessive flash points,
beyond all reach
Solitary demands for all
I'd like to keep
Let's take a ride out,
see what we can find
Valueless collection of hopes
and past desires

What is out there but our broken dreams, except our current actions. Keep on plugging away is our only hope at sanity. It seems to me anyway.

Twenty-Four Hours Part 2

Oh how I've realized, I wanted time
Put into perspective,
try so hard to find
Just for one moment I thought
I'd got my way
Destiny unfolded -
watched it slip away

It is important to take some time everyday to be mindful. Otherwise you might lose your mind!!!

Twenty-four Hours Part One

So this is permanence -
Love shattered pride
What once was innocence,
turned on its side
A cloud hangs over me,
marks every move
Deep in the memory,
what once was love

Does love beat pride every time?? Think about it!!

Heart and Soul part three

Existence-well what does it matter
I exist on the best terms I can
The past is now part of my future
The present is well out of hand (2)
Heart and soul, one will burn (2)
One will burn, one will burn
Heart and Soul, one will burn

Most people can relate to things ballooning out of control. It is hard to know what to think sometimes. Just remember the longer you live the better you are able to cope. In theory anyway. But in theory communism works.

Heart and Soul part 2

An abyss that lasted creation
A circus complete with all fools
Foundations that lasted the ages
Then ripped apart at their roots
Beyond all this good the terror
The grip of a mercenary hand
When savagery returns
for good reason
There's no turning back the last stand
Heart and soul, one will burn (2)

This reminds me of the quickening of the Highlander. But since I am not from the Highlands of Scotland, I would be the South Bender since I am from South Bend and I used to go on Benders. But I don’t think I will live forever, except maybe by the grace of God. As far as savagery returning I say bring it on.

Heart and Soul Part One

Instants that can still betray us
A journey that leads to the sun
Soulless and bent on destruction
Struggle between right and wrong
You take my place in the show-down
I'll observe with a pitiful eye
And humble ask for forgiveness
A request well beyond you and I
Heart and soul, one will burn (2)

It’s hard to know who to trust, but if you can find someone who you can trust, hold on to them and hope that they don’t betray you.

A Means to an Ends Part 3

A house somewhere, on foreign soil
Where aching lovers called
Is this your goal, your final deeds
Where dogs and vultures eat?
Permitted still, I turned to go
I put my trust in you (4)
In you, in you, in you
Put my trust in you, in you

A closet can be full of skeletons or gay lovers. A house can be full of anything

Means to an End Part Two

We fought for good,
stood side by side
Our friendship never died
But stranger ways that froze on highs,
our vision touched the skies
Mortal list - the points to prove
I put my trust in you (3)

With the new gay cowboy movie out, there is more talk about what kind of relationships men can have together. I am not convinced where this line is drawn. I am not gay myself but I also do not have a friendship this strong with another male. I did in the past in college but we did not have sex or anything like that. Anyway I think that men could have better relationships with each other without being gay or turning gay.

A Means to an End Part One

A legacy, so far removed
One day will be improved
Eternal rights beleft behind,
We were the better kind
You this day met free too,
I always looked to you (3)

Constant improvement is my motto and what Ian must have strove for as well. But people like us must also find leaders or role models for our own or we become lost.

Colony Part 3

I can't see why
all these confrontations
I can't see why
all these dislocations
No, family life just makes me feel
uneasy
Stood alone here in this colony
In this colony (4)
Yeah, God in his wisdom
took you by the hand,
God in his wisdom made you understand (4)
In this colony (4)

I have never been in a colony myself, perhaps the closest thing to a colony is a losing team. A winning team is not analogous I think because things run to smoothly. I imagine when we colonize Mars we will be cursing God as well.

Colony part 2

I wore a careless glance
and kissed her last goodbye
Hands in the bag she packed a tear
she tries to hide
Cruel wind that howls down
to our lunacy
And leaves him standing cold
here in this colony

When do you friends become your “real” family? Does your own family have to give up on you for this to happen? Or is Hillary right when she says it takes a Village to raise a child?

Colony part One

A cry for help, a hint of anaesthesia
The sound from broken homes,
we used to meet always here
As he lays asleep she takes him in her arms
Some things I have to do
but I don't mean you harm

Sometimes I wonder where has all the love gone. Did it use to be everywhere and now it is gone. Or is it like Pleasantville in reverse where the love is slowly drained away in favor or commerce and mobility

Passover part 7

This is a crises I knew had to come
Destroying the balance I'd kept
Turning around to the next set of lies
Wondering what will come next

Any change is difficult. No more than from someone who traumatize you. This was obvious the case of the Jews in the Wilderness. It was a bold move but I wish it could have been done with less bloodshed. This goes double for you Stonecutter

Passover part 6

Is this the gift that I wanted to give
Forgive and forget's
what they teach
I'll pass through the deserts and waste -
lands once more
And watch as they drop by the beach

Keeping the band together in the wilderness must have been a struggle. I personally do not believe in a militant God, but neither have I been a slave. So I cannot judge another persons heart but I do know that violence begets violence

Passover Part 5

Moving along in our God given ways
Safety is sat by the fire
Sanctuary from these feverish smiles
Left with a mark on the door

Is it true that God gives us the way. I signed up for Singing lessons today at a local Christian College. But back to Passover, what a massacre. The cult of the Royal Serpent had no chance.

Passover Part 4

Can I go on with this train of defense
Disturbing and purging my mind
I count up my duties -
when all's said and done
I know that I'll lose every time

Feeling like you were born to lose sucks. I don’t feel that way very much, mostly I feel like I can never lose, which can be just as dangerous. I do like trains though. One time I took a train from Portland to South Bend, it took almost three days.

Passover part three

Watching the reel as it comes to a close
Brutally taking its time
People who change for no reason at all
It's happening all of the time

This could be about fish or Hollywood. Both stink after three days.

Passover Part 2

Is this the role that you wanted to live
I was foolish to ask for so much
Without the protection and infancy's guard
It all falls apart at the first touch

It is hard not to be greedy in this world. But if seems that the more you want the more you want it. But this is merely an illusion. It is better to survive with less. Then that will be less you have to protect. What would you give for your first born??

Passover part one

This is the crises I knew had to come
Destroying the balance
I'd kept
Doubting and settling and turning around
Wondering what will come next

I have mixed emotions about the Passover in general. All that bloodshed. It is lucky the American Slaves didn’t try the same thing. Caleb and Joshua were mass murderer if you ask me. Anyway, back to the lyrics. Sometimes we stay in a bad situation just because it is comfortable. This is obviously a bad tact. But when you do try something different you just might get a different result and that is the scary part.

Isolation part 3

Isolation (3)
But if you could just see the beauty
These things I could never describe
Pleasures and wayward distraction
Is this my wonderful prize?
Isolation (5)

What is life's priz? Is it good friends? And what if you have no friends. Is it lots of money?? And what if you have no money? There are lots of desperate people in this world and during this holiday season instead of giving them just money how bout giving them some love??

Isolation part 2

Isolation (3)
Mother, I tried, please believe me
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm ashamed of the things
I've been put through
I'm ashamed of the person I am

Being in a stigmatized group it is easy to relate to a phrase like this. If confidence could be bought the people who really needed it wouldn’t know where to go. But obviously confidence can’t be bought, so we just have to muddle through the best we can for now.

Isolation

Be clear every day, every evening
It calls here aloud from above
Carefully watched for a reason
Mistaking devotion and love
Surrendered to self-preservation
From others who care for themselves
But life as it touches perfection
Appears just like anything else

Love is a many splendid thing unless the slut breaks your heart. I talk from experience but this blog is not about me. It is about how this music affects those who hear it and all I can say is to each there own, but living by such a code leads to a certain amount of loneliness that no amount of friends can cure.

Atrocity Exhibition part 4

And I picked on the whims of
a thousand more
Still pursuing the path
that's been buried
For years of dead woods and jungles and
cities on fire, can't replace
or relate,
can't release or repair -
take my hand,
and I'll show you what was - it will be.

Some people think that the earth is fragile. I think that humans are fragile and cannot live too long on a wrecked planet. How would we show all of this. More importantly who would care. Maybe would could all drive a Prius and take cold showers and try not to kill each other anymore.

Atrocity Exhibition part 3

This is the way (4) This is the way,
step inside
You'll see the horrors of a far-away place
Meet the architects of law
face to face
See mass murder on a scale
you've never seen
And all the ones who tried hard
to succeed
This is the way, step inside (4)
Joy Division

In other words damned if you do damned if you don’t. Anything can be found behind the internet’s window. Or could this be a lyric about war and soldiering in a day and age when complete victory is very fleeting if not undefinable.

Atrocity Exhibition part two

In arenas he kills for a prize
Wins a minute to add to his life
But the sickness is drowned
by cries for more
Pray to God make it quick - watch him fall
This is the way, step inside (4)

Gladiator is one of my most favorite movies because everyone loves a hero. Especially a proud Roman General who became a slave. What a great movie.

atrocity exhibition part one

The silence when doors open wide
Where people could pay to see inside
For entertainment they watch
his body twist
Behind his eyes he says I still exist
This is the way, step inside (4)

This is the way. Who would have though that we would have become such a entertainment based society. Who would think that the CIA would run out of secrets. Step in side indeed.